Lord there are days I feel so close to You and You are so real and so dear to me. I feel Your peace and Your joy and Your love in my heart and You are such a wonder to me. On those days it's easy to thank You, it's easy to live for You and to honor You to surrender. But some days, like today, I don't feel You. It seems as if You are hiding Your face from me and I can't seem to find You anywhere. I feel so alone and lost. My prayers seem to fall on deaf ears and I begin to beleive satan's lies that You don't hear or care. That I am as worthless as I feel sometimes and I can never do anything right. But Jesus; it's in those moments I need to live by fact not feeling. I need to cling to Your promises that You will never leave me nor forsake me. That I am indeed Your daughter, beloved of God. But sometimes Jesus......it's so hard to beleive. So hard to trust.