Being a fourth of Philippine makes me short like a Philippine and yes....that bothers me. Also the fact that I look 12 when in reality I am 16 only adds insult to injury. But God knows my silly little preferences and decided I needed to stop my whining. Maybe one day He'll use my shortness for something or maybe I can minister to other "shorties" with sympathy, :) But either case, He decided to send me a word of rebuke at Ephrata Missions Conference last week.
One of the speakers there, told a story about a silly little woman who came to him in tears over her height (or lack thereof). When I heard the story, I laughed with the rest, though from the laughing glances I got from my sister and friends, I realised that I was just as silly. I don't think I'd ever go crying to a pastor, but I do complain a LOT about the "inconvenience" of being so short and "baby-faced".
I need to learn to accept the fact that God gave me my height and my appearance and I ought to be thankful to Him that I am healthy and redeemed and His daughter. It doesn't matter if I'm not tall and "beautiful" in others eyes, because I am beautiful to Him. Who cares if my nose is round and my face is round, and I am round. It's not how I look, it's how I am. Am I a godly young lady who is serving God in purity and humility, a true handmaiden of the Lord? Am I showing His love to others and reaching out of my "comfort zone"? Am I beautiful by HIS standards?
The outward appearance is NOT to be top priority, because if it is, it becomes so easy to stop accepting yourself for who God made you to be, and to start trying to become who you are not.
And that is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. Rather, I want to push toward the mark, developing inward beauty, and winning souls for Him along the way. To become a perfect work of righteousness and beauty in Him. May I by His grace overcome. -A. M. L.
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